Wow this thread really has taken some twisty turns in the past few days!
I too am a scientist, I have a degree in applied science majoring in biotechnology and microbiology. I was begining my masters in genetic therapies when I fell pregnant with DS. I am now a teacher and almost have my masters in education so I would not consider myself in ill-educated person. I do believe I have the skills to critically analyse information in particular papers which claim to be scienfitically valid. However I am also a mum who in the past 7 years has learnt that my instincts have provided me with just as much as my brain. I also believe strongly in the ancedotal evidence as it is just that - evidence! As a previous poster has said, scientific enquiry is driven by a suspecion that something is going on.
On a personal level, not a day goes by when I don't agonise over my decision to not vaccinate my DD. Last time there was a measles outbreak my gut churned everytime we went out of the house. I accept that my decision places my daughter at risk of catching communicable diseases and their is not a family out there who chooses not to immunise (as opposed to those who just don't) that doesn't know that the risk exists. Having said that, in the case of mealses, mumps and rubella (as this was the vaccination originally discussed) the risk that my child will develope one of these diseases (two of which I survived quite fine - after being immunised twice) and may be the 1 in 100 000 or 500 000 that developes a fatal or life altering consequence of this disease is a much more distant risk than the risk of watching her - my beautiful, communicative, expressive, hugs me at night, makes facial expressions, knows how to play with toys, takes my face in her hands and says "love you mummy" almost three year old disappear into the same world where my gorgeous son lives is a much bigger risk.
Do I think others should vaccinate? thankfully that is not my decision to make. I do know that 7 years ago based on the information I had I choose to vaccinate my son and was very happy with my decision. Do I think vac caused his autism - no! Xander was different from the womb, did they aggrevate the situation - HELL yes! The month proceeding his 4y shots still give me nightmares. He kicked and punched me, rocked, flapped, tried to scratch the vaccine out of his arm, screamed and screamed and screamed - for over 4wks! it was after that that we agreed to go and see a Dr as things were out of control. Xander was different from birth but he has never again been the boy he was before the vaccinations. Occassionaly we get glimpses where, although he is still engrossed in his own discussion, he is looking at me, speaking clearly - participating in a conversation, but mainly he is locked in his own world talking endlessly about digimon or pokemon. He is agitated by change and he is overwhelmed by sensory info - you might find him rocking in the supermarket trolly playing his DS, or madly running in circles in the backyard, or jumping endlessly on the tramp. He is updet as he gets in trouble at school for calling out and talking to loudly. He has no friends becasue he doesn't understand personal space, hugs too tight, licks things and doesn't understand the rules of the games. He gets kicked and beaten up at school because when he couldn't find a chair he didn't know what to do. He bangs his head and tells me he hates himself because he can't stop and he doesn't want to be bad. And I have nothing to offer him, to make him better. Give me chicken pox any day
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