Meg, you can enjoy it the same way I do when I've been up literally all night (11-5 some nights) and DS just smiles at me. Doesn't make you less tired but you realise that they aren't doing it to spite you. And your memories: I remember DS rolling over. I don't remember that he'd been up all night the night before, I don't remember the tiredness I felt, I don't still feel irritation that DH couldn't turn around from his fish for two seconds to see it when I realised he was going to roll over this time after trying all afternoon. You honestly do just blot out the bad things.

You're tired. I know this is going to sound harsh but you're a mum - did you expect to be well rested? Once you stop demanding YOUR rest it gets a LOT easier. I know, I have to remind myself of that a LOT too. My stamina with DS's sleep amazed my friends but a LOT of it has to do with expectation: I expected no sleep for a year so getting just 4 hours meant I was quids in. After the first year I did get cross! It doesn't mean you don't want sleep and you never lose it, nor does it mean you don't want a "perfect" child, but acceptance means you don't feel quite so tired.

Headphones on and out for a walk. You'll de-stress and have time to yourself, even if you are on the go, and your relaxing will maybe help sleep.

Failing that, just change the routine every four days. She's too young to remember what happened three weeks ago so just cycle the routine every four days.

I hope I'm not coming across as a meanie here, I do feel for you, but I do think that sometimes just going with the flow and not demanding your child to change to suit you is the answer.