YES noni - I'm packing it. I was - a couple of weeks ago - having panic attacks and getting myself soo worked up about it.

Then I woke up a couple of mornings ago and remembered how fast DS was (how painful too). I also remember being "out of control" during that birth because it was soooo fast. I came to the conclusion that this time, I am going to control my feelings and the process as much as I can. I told myself, that I am the one who can control this situation (to a degree of course) and that I am going to do it.

That actually made me feel a lot better.

I don't think knowing what it's like to give birth makes it any easier though. It might actually make facing it more difficult because you know EXACTLY what you're in for. There aren't many ifs, buts or maybes - we know what it feels like!! I think any fears any of us have are justified, it's just how we deal with that fear, I suppose. Ultimately, there's a flamin' fantastic present at the end of it all, isn't there? What we do is just amazing - making a human!

I am sure I will still go through times of being scared and worried, but when the time comes, I am determined to be in control. Way more than last time anyway.