Just wondering if anyone else might have had a simliar experience and may have some insight.

When DS was born, aside from relief that it was over, all I really felt was surprise - where did this baby come from?. There was a complete disconnect from him as the baby in my tummy and it took several weeks before i really got used to the idea of him as my child. I love him. Absolutely. But even now I sometimes feel this disconnect and I wonder, just for second, who is this person?

When DD was born I felt elation and immediate connection. Not that rush of powerful mother love like some describe, but I knew she was mine. And I've never wondered where she came from or looked on her as a stranger.

So I wonder if it's due to the birth experience - I certanily didn't get the usual hormones during DS birth since it was an induction.
Or is it to do with birth order?
Or maybe because of their differing genders?

I guess it doesn't really matter, I'm just curious.