Mel, hun, look only you can change or educate your mind about this.
Ive got 2 kids and gave birth naturally, and I tore with each, not gonna lie to you, the pain is bad ok, but personally I didn't feel the tearingok, no lie?

The labor pain is bad, yes but you may go quickly and the pain can be over quite quickly, but hun you're giving BIRTH, and it's the most wonderful, fullfilling exciting special bonding moment of your life, you give life to your child, you birth your baby, and then you hear the cry, and honestly you forget all about it truely.

The other thing is that when you have a contraction, you push and the pain basically stops, well it did for me, and making noises helps during contractions, it actually takes your mind off the pain ( to a certain degree).

Dont be scared hun, this is the moment every mother wants but sadly, only few of us get to experience it, tryuly treasure it, don't fear it.

HTH, sorry to gabble on.