I'm getting very unsure about the decision we have made for the birth but I don't think I really need to feel that way, so I need some reassurance.

My first choice was always a homebirth but with how much they cost I decided that a birth centre with a doula would be a good second choice. I was feeling really positive about that as I have midwife managed care and I think our doula is fantastic.

But lately I can't help but feel like everything is going to go wrong. I don't actually know which midwife will be attending to me when I'm in labour- what if I don't like her? Whenever I have my midwife appointments they are short and pretty 'clinically' based- why isn't anyone asking about my vision of birth and wanting to get to know me? I rang up to change class dates cause they had booked them in for a time I will be away and the lady I spoke to made it sound like the hardest thing ever and as though I was a real problem- how will they act if I have something much bigger I want to argue against? What if I get classed as high risk and bumped to the hospital anyway?

I told my H maybe we should look into a homebirth again but I could see his body language droop- I hate the financial pressure that puts on him now he is the money earner of our family.

I'm just feeling so anxious and sad about it at the moment- but really I have so many positives I need to remember right? I'm pretty well set up with a birth centre and doula- things could be fantastic... I don't want to ruin it all by going in with a negative attitude to start with.

Anyone else get these doubts? Feel free to share your amazing birthcentre experiences!