Okay now that it's creeping up to crunch time, I'm starting to worry that I may have made the wrong decision with deciding on a hospital birth with an obgyn.

I love my obgyn, mind you. He was my IVF FS and I had a real rapport with him. When I fell pg after soo many cycles, it seemed like a safe thing to do to stay with him. I seemed like he would understand my paranoia over my pg like only someone who's been through it with me could. I didn't even think about labour then.

But, luckily my pg has been incredibly uneventful, and even Dr, for all the hassles we had trying to fall pg, has now said I've changed from a challenging IVF patient to an easy obstetric patient.

I now wish I hadn't been quite so nervous to start with and looked into a birth centre again. I'm torn between wanting my IVF Dr there (after all he's been through with us) but also worrying about the restrictions on an active birth in a hospital, esp a private one. I also am aware that Dr will only likely be present for the actual birth, not the labour, where I'll be with midwives I don't know.

My DH has nixed the idea of a doula, saying he wants to have as few people there as possible, and while I agree, bless him, I also worry he won't be able to cope on his own and I won't be comfortable with an unknown midwife.

So now I suddenly feel a little out of control with the whole thing. I'm going to be talking my fears out with Dr when I see him next, but feel like if I don't get the answers I want, that it'll be too late to do anything about it.

I don't know what anyone could suggest, but I guess I just wanted to get it off my chest...

love
sushee