Thanks for all your replies & lovly words. I had a look at the Spinning babies website briefly, as soon as it opened I remembered it from when I was trying to get DD out of her breach position. I'm finding it a bit confusing so I plan on spending more time reading it tonight when DD is in bed and it's not so hot so I can concentrate a bit better.
Hannah, I'm not too keen on going for counceling cause I had to go a few years ago after I was viciously assulted. I was forced to talk about very painful things and would get all worked up only for her to turn around and say "well our time together is up, I'll see you again next week" It would take me all week to get over my counceling session then for the same thing to happen again & again week after week. So yeah, not keen on going there sorry. But I do know what I need to do to turn my self around which is why I'm taking these steps to not rob DD2 out of the birth she deserves.

I feel spineless cause I didn't even give it a go to birth DD vaginally. I just looked at all the things that could go wrong and my heart condition, and just took the safe route.