loads of.

Darling, we make the choices we do with the information we have at the time. The most important thing is that both you and bub are fine, mentally as well as physically. Please don't beat yourself up about not having a breech birth. Not many OBs will do them and there's a lot of scary information out there about them. Yes, they are possible if you have the support, but you have to feel confident you can do it. If you're not, then it's probably safer to have a c/s as fear increases adrenalin which can increase possible problems.

Please don't feel like you needed to be superwoman or anything. If you and bub DD were fine physically, are you able to work on embracing those parts of her birth that were good? Personally, I find counselling great for depression. If you're having difficulty processing the session afterwards, bring that up with your counsellor so together you can derive a way for you to deal with it. It may include journalling, painting or something.

I found the Spinning Babies site to be pretty difficult to follow tbh. Hypnobabies have a "Turn your baby" self hypnosis script you can download from their website and listen to on your ipod. I may be the wrong person to offer advice on this because I didn't know bub was breech, so didn't have the opportunity for him to turn. It's the only kind of birth I know.

There are some people like Rhea Dempsey who offer birth debriefing sessions. I don't know if she offers them over the phone or if there is someone in Brisbane who can do them. Some hospitals offer the service as well. You may find this useful to prepare yourself for the next birth.

Please don't beat yourself up or think you're spineless. Part of parenting is making the decision about what is safest for all involved. You're doing what you need to do now to be informed and empower yourself for the next birth.