The thought of having to do this until 42 weeks is just terrible. I really really want a natural birth. I have been trying to put my mind in the right space for labour. I don't want an induction, but it is so hard to sit around waiting, especially when she isn't engaged and I have these lingering thoughts that maybe she won't .

I guess it doesn't make it easier that I am one of the last people due in my thread, a first timer, and someone quite close to me due a few days before me had her baby two weeks ago.

And, my family just wont freakin stop calling me .

Out of everything I have experienced in pregnancy, the wait at the end has been the hardest, most challenging and most surprising part. If someone could give me a date that she would come, and promised it would be a natural birth, I think I could be more relaxed.

Sorry hormonal rant / needed to get that out.