1.) for those that have done it..can I have your story?

After my first medically-induced birth and traumatic after experience I was petrified of doing it all over again. Thats my context in a nutshell, small nut.
I was adament with my second that I wanted NO epidural to be offered, I wanted to ask for it if I needed it. I refused any induction offer. I really wanted to be in charge of this birth, I wanted to enjoy it, it was mine not the hospitals to experience. I knew I could do it, others needed to get on the same page as me or get of the birthsuite. My second labour began with contractions and a bloody show, I remained at home and walked through the contractions. I arrived at hospital 2 hours before he was born, and I loved every moment.

2.) Was there a point that you wanted to turn back and what made you change your mind?

At one point I became distracted and upset (trauma from my first birth) by the sight of myself stretching and tearing. My support team just kept on encouraging me though and chanting for me to keep up my great effort, they knew I wanted to watch this all happen and just needed them to keep me on track.

3.) Any good books you recommend?

I just read lots of BB and internet birthing articles.

4.) Is the pushing stage so horrible or do you have adrenaline to push past it?

It felt comforting for me, it was just the sight that put me off. Adrenaline is a great tool, but you need focus as well. Focus was vital for me.

Thanks for all your help guys

5.) In your opinion, which is worse? Transition or pushing?

Not sure, I loved it all. I was in charge