It is hard to admit, but I do wonder if my caesar came about from own mental issues with the birth. As much as I really wanted a drug free vaginal birth, I found it difficult once I got there. All the labour pain was in my lower back and I did not get an urge to push, only to clench. My mind was not really helping. I kept on thinking, "I can't cope with the pain now, how am I going to cope with the head coming out". I was also thinking "Oh $h!t, what are we doing having a baby?".
I still don't know whether to go for a VBAC or not next time round. I really need to understand a bit more about the first birth first. All I know is next time I am getting my own birth attendant.


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