Oh Shell - your story makes me want to cry! I can see so much of my feelings in your story! It must of been hell for you not being able to hold your little one after the birth! I really hope that you are happy with your bubs now that you are home and not too sad about what happened.
Keep in touch in the Baby Buddies room sweety
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