Oh Kristy, I read this story before... I think it's in the Articles section and it was anonymous so I've been wondering who the writer was and how I could contact her... and all this time it's you! I read and re-read your story and share all your pain and sadness at the birth of Harry. You've been helping me so much with coping with the loss of my little Hamish. I hope one day soon I'll be able to share your joy and wonder at the birth of a live baby. And I hope that I'll be able to be as brave as you.