I'm feeling like I never want another c-section in my life!!!! Or an epidural. I'm feeling like I was a total idiot for not researching natural birth before automatically choosing to go for a c-section. But live and learn as they say.....
*hugs* I know what you mean. Have you posted in the dissapointing/traumatic births forum?
Hopefully you won't need to have another c-section! If you don't have any health problems and such I'm sure your next one can be a natural birth Perhaps you could see a private midwife and have a doula to advocate for you and support you next time you give birth?