BS - no I didn't post in the disappointing/traumatic birth thread. I actually didn't think that it was right for me to do that, since I chose that birth path, it wasn't something that was out of my control. I mean, it was an awful experience, but I take that responsibility myself and I own that. I have planned for a VBAC, so I have healed, and my SIL is a student doula, so she will be in the labour room with me. She has had two VBAC's herself, so I am very confident that she will be all the motivation I need to get myself across the line.