*hugs* how hard it is when your plans are taken away from you. I hope you get a chance to de-brief in the birth de-brief and get everything off your chest from this. It can be such relief to purge everything in a safe place.
I too had my natural birth taken out of my hands and wound up with a c/s. It was awful and horrifying. Please take time to grieve the birth of your dreams and in the meantime your beautiful girl will help.