Thanks for sharing your story. I'm sure we sometimes wonder why we get these bumps along the way thrown at us (sometimes one after the other with no break inbetween) but isn't it such an accomplishment to look back and say 'we made it through!!' or 'we're making it through!!'?? You got through the only way you knew how and don't be ashamed of anything you did to survive. Will be thinking of you this weekendxox All the best for the furture and the life you will live with your beautiful family no matter where you find yourself in the world.