Thanks guys I do appreciate it.

Fi, I am trying to relax... it is hard though. Will try to do more hypnobirthing relaxations maybe...I have been trying to relax. I do have a glass of water & basically as much time as Jovie will take available. I'm not doing Christmas this year, I mean I haven't gone shopping we aren't going anywhere... staying put so thats one thing.

I haven't been well. I've been on some massive antibiotics in the past few weeks and my body isn't doing crash hot. I've now got a virus and my allergies which haven't visited in ages are going full force, so I know why things aren't getting better quickly, but its still annoying.

I think my supply is dwindling because everytime I express I get less & less. So at first I would get small amounts but last week even when I expressed I could get 60mls easy enough... now I can barely get 20mls even at 4am when Jovie hasn't fed yet. Jovie "acts" hungry but I think more so its the pain of sucking than the fact that I don't have enough milk, but by substituting the EBM I know I'm not getting as much milk out of my bb's to help keep supply up. But until the thrush settles then its hard to work with Jovie on the breast to increase my supply.