Hi,
It can feel a bit like you are trapped, can't it. I wonder, what are the real chances of you getting emergency teaching before the next school year anyway? If you are a secondary teacher - I'd say none. If primary, maybe it would be a bit easier.
You know, most schools are happy to employ emergency teachers for just 2 or 4 hrs at a time. This might suit you perfectly. A teacher I was speaking to recently was doing just this. And the primary school my kids went to was happy for me to just come in for the literacy block.
You are at the toughest part now. By January it will be another kettle of fish altogether. Your baby will be on solids, and will be able to cope with less breastmilk.
Give yourself a break. Go out to the hairdresser's for .....6 hours (OK, take in some shopping as well) Tell your mum and your dh not to ring unless it's dire, and look like you mean it. I bet you Izzy and grandma sort it out between themselves! They'll have a great time. It's not all about food. I bet there are some days she will cry with you, too, and you HAVE the boobies.
For info on working and breastfeeding go to www. breastfeedingfriendly. com.au
(Take out the spaces - I'm trying to stooge Belly Belly - the link reverted to ABA;s when I tried yesterday
Barb