Well done Danielle! It sounds like I have similar problems with attachment and now I have mastitis good on you for persevering!
That sucks ezymay :-( it's so not easy, so many times I've almost thrown in the towel and this week will be my greatest challenge with DH away. But so far I think I've gotten by by setting small (extremely small goals) last weekend it was until his tongue got snipped, which happened Wednesday, then the goal was to today. I've now moved it to one month. When things get to painful I've expressed instead and bottle fed expressed milk to save myself. But also knowing that if I do happen to give up then it's not the end of the world.