Yowie, Thank you for sharing with us. I am so sorry that you were made to feel inadequate and not given the support you needed. I know how easy it is to doubt what you are doing is right & I think it is amplified by the fact that you love your baby so much & want to do everything 100% right (although I am not quite sure this is ever possible).

I took DS back to the clinic yesterday for a weight check and he has increased by 40grams since Thursday. The nurse said *t wasn't as much as she would have expected but agreed it was a move in the right direction. She said she was at a real loss as DS is so lively and alert & looks healthy in every way. I have decided to take DS to the Paediatrician to make sure he is okay so I had to go to the Dr today to get a referral. She checked DS over, said he has a good covering of fat, good muscle tone, checked his heart and eyes, head/neck strength and DS had a good chatter with her...she said in her view he is a perfectly healthy baby but did agree that since he has crossed percentiles for weight that it is a good idea to go to the Paediatrician. We have an appt. in three weeks.

She also said that given his father's build (tall & slim) it is not surprising that he is thining out. And she said she didn't think I needed to continue with the additional feeds if he was alert & happy with what he was getting before I started with the additional feeds.

I have also looked at DH's baby book which has some of his weights in it and his weight shows a similar pattern with ÐH being born in the 75th percentile (based on my blue book charts), by the 3rd month he is between 50-75th percentile, 4th month 50th percentile, 5th month mid-way between 25-50th percentile, 7th month 25th percentile & by the eigth month 10th percentile. The pattern is much the same for DS but it is just happening earlier. I don't know if DH was breast or bottle fed & both of his parents have died so there is noone to ask.

Now...I am a bit confused. He was a happy baby on his old feeding pattern (set by him, not me) and he is regurgitating a lot of what he takes on the additional feeds as soon as the feed is finished. My thoughts are that I will continue the additional feeds until the end of this week which should give my milk supply some time to increase if it is needed...if not I guess it will decrease again according to how DS is feeding. Problem is....I've created a 'milk monster'.....DS now expects this second feed so I need to wait until DH is here to help with taking it away; I need the support.

It is a very tricky situation and I am still not entirely convinced of how I will handle it but I think what I have written is what I will do...not to say I wont change my mind between now & then. I will also be calling the LC tonight just to let her know and see what she thinks.