Thanks so much for your help, we have considered getting it cut and will do so in the next few weeks probably I know that it will make it easier to put him on the breast again but im just still scared about the whole thing and seeing him vomit up my blood again frightens the life out of me. I think im just at burn out piont, and my husband is back at workin a week and a bit and I really dont think I will cope on this expressing and feeding timetable I have at th emoment with my damaged breasts.

I know breast milk is better for him, I can see the difference in him sleeping when he has the breast milk compared to the formula I give him when I cant keep up with him but I already feel relief now I have made the decision.

Do I only just drop the one feed ever 24-48 hours or do I increase it as it goes on, assuming then that my body drops one feed ever day to second day so by the end of a few weeks that my body will produce less and less and dry up?/ Ive heard there are tablets you can take too - and should I be using cabbage leaves now then in between expressing.?

Many thanks, its soo good to be able to put it out there and not feel like I am being judged or a bad mother. ALthough the ABA have beena good help I still feel like the are judgmental, one help lady I spoke with told me what I was doing was second best etc etc and made me feel bad, which annyoed me as I am making a huge effort to express togive him some breast milk.