Michelle, firstly - GO TO BED! (Pot calling kettle and all that........hehe)

Secondly, don't be so hard on yourself hun. You know what? Being exhausted is going to do nothing for your supply, so if nothing else, reassure yourself that giving him a bottle so you can have a break could actually be really helpful. You are NOT giving in, far from it in fact. You've have worked so hard to get to this place, you are entitled to a rest at times. I remember how exhausting it is getting up so often, and how you'd do anything for a stretch of sleep longer than two hours! Just remember, it will get better.

WOOHOO for all the good things happening for you guys! And it sounds like there is a lot going right for you - it's just hard to see through the fog of fatigue LOL. it must be great to be able to feed more comfortably out and about now.

Lastly, do not apologise. That's what we are all here for, to listen, help and support each other. Goodness knows you've done it enough for me