Choosing surgery for a birth with no medical indication is a very serious choice and I strongly recommend you look into it further. Elective caesareans are risky, often involve complications for the baby who is premature and come with multiple health risks for you as well. You would also be risking your life and future fertility through having surgery you just don't need with a higher risk of death, postpartum haemorrage and emergency hysterectomy. If you are holding deep fear around normal, physiological birth please find a professional to speak to about it as choosing surgery for an emotional issue is a very drastic and dangerous solution. If you don't have heart surgery without cause, why have uterine surgery without cause? If you go to the Birthrites website you'll see many many many women working to recover from caesareans. They are NOT an easy option, trust me, I've had one. Use this chance to change your life, and work through what troubles you. Carrying fear about anything is debilitating, whatever the fear. Your baby will thank you for a normal, physiological birth!