Thanks for your replies and reassurance everyone!! I have some anti-anxiety meds here, have spoken to the midwives and have the go ahead from my Dr to take them if needed. i really don't want to take it, but it may come to that... hopefully just knowing it's there will help enough! The doctor performing the surgery is the same one who did the other two, so I have a sense of reassurance about that...and being private, I have requested the same midwife as last time - she made me feel calm just walking into the room last time...and the anaesthetist is a good friend of mine (who, incidently has just had a bub herself in feb). One of the great things about a small country hospital I guess. Still...I have been flipping out all evening. Hopefully it will be out of my system by morning. I should be excited, but I'm not...it's a bit late to change my mind about having another baby now!!!