I remember going in having the spinal, holding jase's hand, them rushing jack out of the room, laying there stunned hearing the nes he wasn't breathing and that he was a boy, jase leaving the room, vomiting on the anethesist i remember recovery talking to the nurse as she used to live not far from me, then I am a blank until 7 hrs later when I demanded I be taken to SCU to see Jack... I have hazy memories of speakign to people on ph and seeing some pics Jase got printed for me...I have no recollection of being taken via SCU to stroke jacks face but I did apprently I hate that I dont remember that