Helen mate, I agree have a serious talk with your OB and have DH present.

The anethetist is able to do 1/2 spinal and 1/2 epidural, I was offered it at my hospital, however in the end chose to have just a spinal for my c/s this time with Tara. My question I would ask your OB is the reason why you felt things last time? If it has to do with the anesthetic can they use a different type? for example I had fentenyl not morphine as im allergic to morphine due to my asthma and excema.

I had huge fears of Tara's c/s birth after Julia's traumatic labour and emergency c/s. I saw my psychologist and talked to her weekly for weeks and weeks about preparing myself for the c/s, I do recommend counselling to prepare yourself, it was very beneficial for me. We worked out what I was scared of and then made sure that I kept telling myself that every birth is different, this is Tara's birth not Julia's and kept focusing on that and positive affirmations. Also you could have hypnotherapy done too to help relax you before the birth, I have had relaxation hypnotherapy done to help me with my driving, my psychologist does it as a form of relaxation meditiation and when in the state of relaxation she would insert a paragraph like you will not be scared of the c/s, this birth will be healthy and safe etc etc...just a thought on how to help you. Im always here if you need to chat ok?

Bel
xxx