True Maz, like I said in a previous post, some will be ready to challenge their comfort zone and others not, and thats perfectly okay - we all go through growth and change at different times. I used to think I needed the best Ob, in the best hospital, and definitely private! Then I did some research in my own time and it changed... but not before two private births!!!

The beauty of a large forum like this one is that not only are you replying to one person, you are replying to a whole forum. So while I may not help the OP, there may be many others out there, all along different parts of their journey in terms of acceptance. Like you said, if you knew what you knew now.... so everyone's journey starts somewhere... maybe it's just one post that makes the lightbulb go on... and sometimes it's not even the one you expect.