I was terrified at the thought of being awake while they performed the c/s but it wasn't as bad as I expected. The theatre staff knew I was really scared so they were very good at keeping me distracted. TBH, I felt a fair bit of tugging but DS was a very big bub so they told me to expect that. It didn't take all that long for DS to be delivered and once he was out I was just a blubbering mess, kissing my bubba and talking to him. I don't even really remember the rest of it until they took DS away and then the theatre staff were back to distracting me again. It was nowhere near as bad as I had imagined it to be and I wouldn't consider being knocked out unless you really think you can't cope..those first moments are just amazing, so beautiful