were do I start

DS1 - emergency c-s was NOT prepared. I wanted the whole natural, no drugs, calm birth. 23 hours later and alittle boy who's head was stuck in my twisted pelvis made mehave an emergency c/s. BUT due to having fussed together discs I had to have a general. Very tramtic start to motherhood I can tell you. People screaming in the op theatre to get me 'under' as my contractions rolled one after the other. J man wasnt aloud in and I was very frightened. I dont remember much of the first night...to much pain and no help. I remember trying to co sleep with hima nd the nurses kept taking him away into his own crib

DS2 - planned c/s. Wonderful. Ran smooth. Tried to have a spinal put in but could feel the needle hitting my spine and the anethatis said no. J man was permitted to coem back into theatre once I was out. DS2's birth is the only one he watched so to speak...he said he could never do that again.

DD - planned c/s again on the tuesday...went into natural labour on the friday before at midnight. Begged for a VBAC but foudn out that my pelvis is to badly damaged for me to give birth naturally...well I tried . Had another GA. Had a birth plan this time...was to be woken up in recovery to breast feed with baby and J man straight away. It worked and the 3 of us spent alot of time in there in happiness. I had my c/s eat 3.30am and i was in the shower at 6.30am...3 hours later. I had no pain what so ever. I felt lik I had gone to sleep and woken up to find a baby an the last 9 months a dream. I never needed pain killers, had no pain, nothing! Awesome c/s. I was home on day 3.

DS3 - was a nightmare planed GA c/s. Went in and asked for pics to be taken...eveyrone happy. (had a very bad last 2 months of pg). woke in recovery alone. Crying my eyes out in pain and that my baby wasnt with me. he was in SCN as the cord was around his neck 3 times, he was blue and very sick. MIdwives would not let me see him until that night and wouldnt let me breast feed him until I screamed at him. In all this was my worst one but I think that had alot to do with me emotionally at the time.

I had my tubes removed with his birth....and if I didnt have them, as bad as my last birth was, Id probably be either pg or have a nb by now.

Good luck and well done for getting yourself organised before hand.