Thanks girls, you are all so beautiful and kind with your encouraging words...I'll re read this post if I get the courage to send him again....Because today didn't go as planned in fact it didn't go at all!!

Thursday last week I went into the family day care office to sign all the paper work, pay the admin fee, lock in days and times etc and (we'll call her Miss A) told me that she would drop off my/DS paperwork on friday to our carer and possibly see us there Monday morning for our settling in visit.....pretty straight forward.

This morning at 8.30am I arrived at our carers house and noone answered the door so i rang the house no answer, I rang the scheme only to be told to leave a message in the message bank as noone was available, NOT the greatest start so I waited for our carer thinking she might have been held up (she walks a little girl down to her school hence why DS's drop off time is 8.30am because i didn't want him out in the pram in peek hour) I waited for 1/2 and hour still trying to call both our coordinator and the house and got a big fat NOTHING!!!

Fuming I got home and called the scheme and finally got a hold of another coordinator who had no idea who I was, where the carer was but assured me my paper ork was sent on Thursday?? WTF?? I was sooo mad I asked for my coordinator who i delt with on Thursday to call me back because I wanted to know how they could let this happen and where on earth was the carer and other kids??

So finally I get a call from Miss A only to be told that she dropped the paper work off this morning and left it on the doorstep because noone was home (WTFdid she not wonder where everyone was?) And then she had the hide to say it was my responsibilty to get in contact with the carer to organise start days etc. I lost it then by the end of my tyrad she had apologised and agreed it was her fault and should have done this differently..Ah just try doing your job!!!!

So it turns out...that Noone from the scheme contacted our carer she had no idea that we were coming and she didn't have any kids coming today so she organised appointments Dr's hair etc because as far as she knew she wasn't working and was absolutely mortified this has hapened to us, She rang me this afternoon so upset and concerned for DS and myself. I know it wasn't her fault, I know she genuinly loves the kids and because she really doesn't seem like the sort of person who would do that on purpose but My goodness it has just added more fuel to my already simmering fire...I just feel like the whole thing is a mess, obviously the comunication between the schemes and the careers is pretty bad or non exsistant. Our carer did say to me should I still like to put DS in that I would be dealing with her and not the sceme and she just hoped that I had enough confidence in her to care for my son and that she would NEVER do that to anyone.

What do you guys think...Fine way to start dc hey LOL...if I didn't I'd be crying again!