Kaz, also once you start, you become an "Existing family" so get first dibs on any spots that come up. So you might get the extra 2 days very soon.

Also, the thought of leaving them the first few times is usually worse than the reality. It is normal to feel what you are feeling -I've been there twice, it wasn't any easier with the second child. But both boys settled in well and after the first couple of days I felt much better about it. For the first day, book yourself in for coffee with a friend and a massage or something - it will really help to be pampered and not alone. GL hun and big hugs.