I could've written your exact post 9 months ago hon. I spent months and months dreading the time when I would have to return to work and have to put DS into childcare. I even started buying lotto tickets as that is they only way we would be able to afford for me to be SAHM long-term. Anyway, fast forward to when DS was 8 or 9 months and I started visiting the local centres that I was on lists for. My mind changed completely when I visited the first centre (which is where he is no), all of a sudden I saw how good it could be for him, all the new things he would be able to experience/do that we can't do at home. It was at that point that I started to feel better about it.

He started just over a month a go (when he turned 1) and is only going one day a week (that is all we can get right now). I'm really happy with the center and he's getting to play in the sand pit, do painting eat dirt and form relationships with other people. I won't lie, the transition has been difficult, but I love that he is learning new things and new tricks.

If you can't shake the worry and angst (which I couldn't) then I would really recommend going and having a look. It will put your mind at ease and help you to get more comfortable with it, without the worry.