Lil Mr went for his first day of childcare today I start work on Thursday but wanted to try and ease him and me into it early. They all said he is such a happy baby and was such a good boy he only grizzled when he was tired and hungry and the rest of the time slept or sat happily playing in the rocker..

I missed him so much though the house felt empty without him I went up 3 times to see him and ended up bringing him home at 3pm. Daddy was saying how good it was to have a break but I look after Ryan 24/7 and I didn't want to leave him any longer

How am I going to cope working, I only have a 30minute lunchbreak and is a 10minute drive there and back from work but a 1min drive from our house (it's on the corner of the top street from us). I keep telling myself it's only 2 months work so we can be financially secure and have some savings because if anything goes wrong we live tight and wouldn't have much money to fix it or vet bills etc.

How did you find ways to cope? Ryan loves the attention, I keep looking at his picture saying I need to do it for him I just don't want to be an emotional wreck at work!