Oh Mel dont feel guilty. Like you said its what the books siad and at them time it may have been the oly thing that you could see helping you. I rememebr I did it one night and just couldnt keep going. i only did it cause i was at my wits end, but thne i read some great books which really struck a cord with me! i personally dont believe CC should be used but I know a lot of friends who ahve used it and thats their chioce!
your a great mummy MEl dont forget it