oh Meredith *hugs*

There are doula's out there for post birth care. They can give you a break for a few days, it can be dear. Otherwise there are nanny orginsations which you can call to give you a few days where you can sleep & have him with you still.

I took Matilda to sleep school when she was 11 weeks because I couldn't cope anymore with her not sleeping. They did the dampened CC and we decided that we would have a go and see how she responded & if in the end we hated it than we would stop. I hated it and told them what I could do and what I couldn't do. They didn't like it, but I stuck to my guns & got help and support for a week. I did learn some things while I was there that helped give me confidence in the longer term. And I did get some breaks and rest which was desperately needed. AND... I came home & modified what I had learned to what we were comfortable doing in our house.

For us we learned that Matilda cried & screamed no matter if I was holding her or if she was in her cot. I refused to leave her alone during it, but we learned that she would cry or scream for the same amount of time. So I would sit next to her cot & pat her bottom until she was asleep (they wanted me to leave the room... but I wouldn't). They didn't like me doing it until she was asleep either... but it was my compromise.