Ok I really need some solutions

[BekZ]

Hi Ladies,

Now I am really at my wits end. I hate to admit it but I am so lost with getting Eva to sleep. I really am a breaking point. I dread sleep times and I am loosing my patience with everyone including Eva. I just want to cry or run away.

Over the last week I've tried pay extra attention to Eva and getting her down and it seems I am failing even more. She is not feeding to sleep anymore either and she absolutely hates being put in the cot. So here is what I have tried:

First sign of tired signs change nappy and offer feed. If she is just playing around with feeding I put her in the cot. This is where is gets fun...not!!. As soon as I attempt to put her down she screams, kicks her legs. SO I pick her up and she continues to kick and scream. I offer more boob, sometimes she takes it others not. I settle her then put her back down...If I am luck she'll lay there for a minute then the protesting starts. I let her go a bit. Then I pat her and say shhhhh, her screaming gets worse. So I pick her up (and she smiles) and bounce her on the fit ball. She may start to go to sleep after 15 to 20 mins. So I put her down then lo and behold she is screaming again. This can go on for an hour until I am so frustrated that I take her out of the room and leave her to play...But then she is cranky and crying out. So I try again,eventually after hours and many feeds she sleeps. Where have I gone wrong? I am not a good mum atm

Did I mention my husband is cranky too and blaming me for not setting up good sleeping habits