I seem to have a sixth sense. I knew the night we dtd I would be pg that month- I went outside after and it was a full moon. A week later we had a MASSIVE fight- I said again I would be pg and well I was.
It was a rollercoaster until at 9w we lost our angel.
2 cycles on at 8dpo I got a bfp...... BUT I've had this before - FR gave me a single false bfp last Easter. I'm too scared to do another test because I don't know if I can handle a bfn and I can't tell dh because I really don't know how upset he was about the mc and if I got a bfn would it upset him? If I got another bfp how do I tell him? I'm at the point of keeping it secret as long as I can but already I feel alone and confused - but not enough to tell him.
I just want a bub- no bf anythings no scheduled bding no ms no stress no ultrasounds (they completely freak me out and did with dd1 after the mc I don't know if I even want one at all).
Sometimes it just plain sucks how stressful this journey can be. You're not being a sook- you have every right to feel emotional and stressed in this situation.
Only you will know when the right time to tell DH is and in the meantime you can vent to all of us on BB as much as you need to.
Men can just plain suck at discussing their emotions sometimes, but it does sounds like you need to try to sit down with your DH and discuss how you both feel about your loss some day. (But I don't know if now is the right time to do that or not.) Regardless of how this cycle turns out, continuing to TTC is bound to bring up these issues over and over again so you'll both need to deal with them eventually.
I hope you have a sticky BFP and smooth sailing for the next 9 months!
No wonder you're feeling so stressed about this! So often men's feelings on these emotional things are so deep we don't even know they're there. I hope you can find the courage to retest, and tell your DH when you feel the time is right.
Ok no one knows what's going on. I'm at day 28 of my cycle and I SWEAR on my life I'm o-Ing today!!!
The oi nurses said that I o'd on the 30th but said my lh was high then (but I also have pco)
I think I'm going to call tomorrow because I have all the signs that I usually have- sore nipples, ewcm, feeling like my ovaries are going to burst and out of interest I did a opk which came up positive - but they always do- obviously even the nurses misread my one for a pos.
So frustrating because there was a definate bfp......
Don't trust the bfp AND......
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