Vent away! That's what we're here for

I'm afraid I don't have any advice, but just wanted to say that it sounds like you've been through a lot already and that I'm really sorry things haven't gone the way you'd hoped so far.

There are lots of girls here who have been through similar experiences and I'm sure that you'll find them a great help!

All the very very best for your TTC journey, hoping it's a BFP for you soon