Well girls,
thats me out for this month.
Af showed her ugly head this afternoon. Of course i couldnt wait till saturday to do the test so did one this morning and negative-of course. My periods are just horrendous with all these fertility drugs. i really thought if i wasnt pregnant this month that i would die and fall into a bumbling mess. But i have been brave and coped.But i did treat myself tonight with some red wine,and i enjoyed it a lot. It is so hard to not get angry when it seems like there is all this intervention,and nothing. No result. It feels like a waste of my time being at the consultations,a waste of doing all those needles. i even feel i'm wasting the fs time. Like i'm hopeless. What is wrong with me. Why won't my body DO this one thing for me. I know i should be grateful for what i have but i want another child. More than anything ever.Life can be really really cruel sometimes. And you know life can be really cruel sometimes. There are beautiful pregnant women everywhere.As for all my other girls. i hope that your Af is on her way out,and hasnt given you too much grief. I really thought there'd be a few of us going through together this month. Not to be.I hope all you other girls are coping better with the let down.
Big hugs for everyone.
Pauline