I think I've reached the end of my tether. I'm feeling so very despondent today and I don't think its just the bipolar making itself known either.

My chart this month has been a real horror. I don't know why. There is no medical reason for it. My pre-O temps were uncharacteristically up and down. I was expecting a temp rise this morning and instead, it's almost flatlined. I've had two days with my first ever positive OPK's. I've had EWCM of really good amount and quality for the past week. Maybe Baby was telling me I was good to go.

And now it looks as though I'll either O later again or will be anovulatory.

I woke this morning and realised that I'm just so sick of the whole temping and ttc thing. I should still BE pregnant, not trying to see two lines on a stick again. I'm tired of my life revolving around my thermometer and I'm tired of my DH giving me grief because we have to have sex on command. I'll stick out to the end of this cycle (if it ever ends) because I've made an agreement, but I honestly think that if I'm feeling then, like I feel now....that'll be it for me.

If it is meant to happen again. It will.

Lisa