Hello, chin up chickkie, it is hard... but it will get better!
I'd just like to say (about last PG) when we'd been trying for ages and I'd reached the end of my tether, I went and did sometime totally non-scientific. I bought a little african fertility doll, and set up a space with candles and some beautiful wish beads, and a silky pink feminine cloth, and fresh flowers each day. It made me feel better, like I was honouring my feminine creative self. Anyway, it might just be coincidence, but I fell pregnant that very month. So sometimes you've just got to chill out and enjoy the ride a bit.
Hope you're feeling better soon, and in the meantime, treat yourself.
Marydean