Awww Lisa,

It is a very difficult thing to go through month after month. I too am getting that sinking feeling again today as AF approaches. I know that it is more difficult for you because you have a strict timeline you and your drs have decided to stick to.

There's nothing really I can say except you're not alone!!! Like some of the other girls have said, my first two pregnancies came very easily (even though the second ended in m/c) and I am forever grateful for that BUT in some ways I think it makes it harder this time that it hasn't happened first time, mainly because this together with my recent history, makes me worry that 'something's up'. Will soon find out tho, off to my gyno next week.

I think Marydean's idea is spot on. I have done something similar, an idea that my dear girlfriend passed on to me. (She has had a really tough time ttc for about 18months and has just gotten a bfp on her second IVF cycle) - I went out and bought a little pair of baby socks and I sleep with them every night under my pillow. It might sound silly to some people, but each night before I go to sleep I give them a little squeeze and think positive thoughts and say a little prayer that one day soon there will be a little baby to wear those little socks.

Obviously this isn't going to make me fall prg any sooner, but it does make me feel better and is one thing I can do to try and stay positive.

Maybe you could try something like this?? You just never know, it might make you feel a bit better.