I feel like i am ready now, i just want to officially ttc, but hubby and i both put down april as the month to start trying, i know april is not that far away really, but i just cant wait, when i try to talk to him about it he just keeps saying soon, but in the bedroom i get mixed messages.
Im on the pill and most time we double up to be safe and use protection, this last month i was not very consistant with taking the pill and each time we dtd i ask hubby to put one on, he is quite aware of the missing pills yet, declines extra protection, i mean what is up with that, its doing my head in giving me mixed signals.
The original plan was going to be to wait till my lil sis wedding, but her other bridesmaid has stated that she is ttc and not going to stop because of the wedding so i though why should we, so we moved the month up by 6 months.
But i just cant help it i just want to be pregnant, i just want to start trying i feel like i have ants in my pants just wanting it so badly.
The only thing that is stopping hubby atm is that he is out of work, and i know that is a fair call, all the other children were concived when we were financial.
And i know that hubby likes to get me knocked up so thats not his issue, im just being impatient, but i want it so badly.

Thanks for letting me vent or rant, im just slightly confused with hubby and his change of mind in the bedroom, it gets my hopes up.