oh dear i just lost it....

[emstar]

Feel like I'm having an ultra hard time at the moment... living in Sydney where I really don't have many close friends, feeling lonely etc. Just bumped into someone that I know from back home in Adelaide who also works in the city.... have emailed her a month ago to see if she wants to catch up (she has a child) but she never got back to me.

So bumped into her and she apologies that she hadn't emailed as she'd been sooo busy, fair enough. I mentioned that I was feeling a bit lost in sydney and not loving it, feeling a bit loney and her response was 'well just have a child and you'll never be lonely'. I had to walk away but first had to respond 'we've been trying for nearly 2 years'. Of course I got sooo upset. This is the first time I've really got upset over something like this!

sorry just had to let it all out!

[Papillon]

Oh babe.. that sounds like it was hard and awkward!



I dont have much advice, as i dont think you need it.. so i just wanted to offer you a huge hug and im sorry your feeling that way!

xoxoxo

[emstar]

thanks missymoo! appreciate your comments

think i am going to go and talk to a psychologist or something maybe, everything is getting me down and should't be getting upset like i am!

[Manhattan]

Emstar, just wanted to offer you some support. I cannot imagine how you feel having being ttc for 2 years, but you do have every right to get upset. Don't ever think that your feelings are not warranted! Some people really should think before they speak, and I have no doubt that I would have reacted in exactly the same way you did.

We're all here anytime you need to talk hun

[emstar]

ah thanks Mel! This poor girl didn't really know we were actively trying though, well she knew we were in 07.... and i've never let on before about how desperate i am for a child. Plus I never ever get upset with anyone except my HD. so i may have overreacted, oh well!
yeah on and off for 2 years with nothing wrong... seeing a specialist next month

[Megan]

Em, it's so hard. We were TTC for 3.5 years (no known reason) so I know where you're coming from. People just don't think when they make comments like your friend, and often they have had no experience or have known anyone dealing with infertility. Don't feel bad for what you said to her and for getting upset. What you are going through is hard and there are going to be bad days. it might be an idea to go and seek some counselling if you think it will help you. I saw a counsellor and then I started seeing a naturopath. For some reason I didn't gel with the counsellor and felt more comfortable chatting with my NP. It's important to find someone you are comfortable with.
Good luck with your specialist. I hope this is your year.