I don't know if this is the right place but I'm so brimming with hope while at the same time trying to keep a lid on it!!

As some of you will know DS2 was supposed to be the last. I worked hard to get him And ever since he was born I KNEW he wasn't the last. I spent many nights awake feeding him, looking a him and crying cos I just knew in my heart he COULDN'T be my last.

So he's now going to be 2 in March and I've spent that whole time telling and asking DH for ONE more. And time and time again I've gotten a big fat NO. A couple of times I got hope, but got squashed too.

The last few weeks I reduced him to "fine, if that's what you want do it" but it's been a bit narky, and that's not what I want at all!!

But tonight I asked him kinda jokingly what I should do with Jake's nappies he's outgrown....should I sell them? and his response was (in a nice, normal tone) "well it's up to you but you still want one more"

Gobsmacked much??

So.....am I holding on to nothing here??? The last thing I want is a child he really doesn't want. But then in this situation someone has to give.....