Big hugs to you S'rose. I know how you are feeling. As much as you are expectiong your AF it doesnt stop the sadness once it comes. This is our ninth month and every time AF comes so do the tears and all the emotion of knowing it starts all over again. Have a big cry if you need, some tlc from hubby and a glass of champers to get you through your AF.
Sending lots of love your way
xo