It may be a good idea to wait, Jade. It sounds like you are super stressed and it's not a good thing for conception anyway (stress can reduce your chances for conceiving). Maybe just put TTC on the back-burner and not actively try but go with the flow? If you get preggers, you get preggers. If you don't, you can start fresh next cycle (after taking a deeeeep breath) and go back to actively trying?