Thanks for the advice so far, some has been rather helpful.
Blacktown hospital does have a spa setup but it does not permit water birthing, apparently they pull the plug just as the baby is to arrive, not sure that would make much difference anyway.

Yes I know my age is something I need to take into account but when I am reminded of my age it only adds to the stress of "do I get pregnant now or not"

I guess when asking myself what my biggest worry is, this is my answer: How do I turn a frightening view of pregnancy into a beautiful view. I have read so many scary stories, seems every one talks about the pain in such big words. Is it really that bad, surely if it was then no one would be having babies.
Ok I can except there might be some pain but isnt pain just what you make of it.
I could relax more if I knew that having a baby was not this excruciating pain and was a beautiful experience.

Thanks again I really do appreciate all your advice and help, even if you feel your words are of not much value to my questions, I can assure you they are.
S

P.S by the way, I do want to get things on the 9 month path very soon, I believe I am ready, just have a wall of fear in front of me that is stopping me, remove that I am on the way.